This week I had a complete cry baby melt down. A cry baby melt down that all started with Facebook. No, I was not upset by the changes, I didn't want to be a part of that angry mob. Instead I was trying to embrace the new and was uploading the new Timeline (which I LOVE by the way!)
When I did the update I started looking at pictures that I hadn't looked at in ages on there. Suddenly I came across one of me, roughly around Leyton's age and it because so apparent.....
He is his mommy's child. I know I've posted comparison pics before but it just amazes me how much he looked like his daddy at the beginning and how now there are pictures of me as a child that could be him. His daddy is still there though, the shape of his eyes, his chin and eeeegad that gorgeous curly hair is all Ball.
Then I started thinking. I started getting all spiritual and deep. Yes my friends, I was getting spiritual and deep on FACEBOOK! What dawned on me in that moment is that Leyton is a chance for my twin brother Steven. He is what I would imagine Steven would look like. He is likely why I knew I always wanted a boy and got a boy. Leyton is a chance for Steven to grace this world since he didn't have a chance to the first time around.
I knew then that I am going to make it the best world he could ever possibly imagine, and in some almost impossible way....I loved my son 50 times more than I had just moments before.